Well, happy 23rd bday to myself!!! Phewww! ! 23 years, that's a long long year, if I'm a tree (sentang for example) I would have been cut down to make furniture and could be sold at 20k ahahhaha... If I'm a house, I would have started to have some electrical and plumbing problems...
I considered this year's birthday to be sweet and memorable, 8 of us went to ZEN, a japanese restaurant and we found out that the manager was actually Malaysian, had a very nice chat and all. At one point where the restaurant suddenly played the birthday song with a cake (yeah, we brought the cake, but I thought they would just serve it, not really sing!) I was a bit elated and embarressed since the actual birthday is on 14, huhuhuh...
I think we had free peas and melon guys, since all other customers don't actually have them!!! ehehehhe. Thanks guys for willing to spend quite a lot for a dinner. I haven't upload the pics yet, I'll do it someday.
Kesimpulan:
1) They don't have takoyaki, i really want to try 'em
2) Thanks for all the songs, wishes, cards and presents (I haven't received any form ikrom, itsu?)
3) May dad actually sang for me!! (even tho he sang it for the purpose of telling me that he got a new car huhuhu.. abah abah)
4) My phone was barred (i didn't pay the bill ehehhehe... hey, it's not my fault that they didn't send the bills)
The Guilt
Recently, I have created so many misdemeanours that covers all aspect of my life, either academically, health (physical & mental) or my soul. The feeling of guilt has finally getting to me and I think its time for me to change. In my 12 long years of life (I've deducted 10 years because I don't think I was responsible for my life during that time), I have never made any resolutions either on special occasions or not (new year for example, but I think resolutions should be made depeds on situations that change a person's view). I thought it was a waste of time, not that I'm too concern with time in all these years. Knowing that I'm not disciplined enough to put an effort into achieving something has prevent me from doing so.
My disease has became more chronic this year and I think I should and MUST change my attitude towards time and chances that I've been given. I'm craving for something to pursue, something that brings a meaning to my life as I just realise that time flies much quickly when you're not doing something meaningful. I'm afraid that when I wake up and realise that I've been doing nothing for these years, I might regret it.
I've been thinking, if I want to gradute with first class as my goal, then what will become of me after that? Create new goal? then my life would consists of small goals which inconistant to each other. Lots of people around me has considered the possibility of Phd which I'm not very keen on. I have to say this out loud, I'm sick of studying, sick of being at the same place, doing almost the same thing and I think I've reached my limit (I hope I could just bear with it a little more... fuhhhh... tarik napas...). I thought of pursuing Ir, but it doesn;t hold any meaning to me, it's not something that I really want.
Addition
Mak mentioned the other day that abah wants one or two of us to take a boating license, and when I thought about it, it wasn't a bad idea except it takes 2 years to obtain it. Maybe i could try and take it with the scuba license that I always wanted (Since someone doesn't want me to take the scuba license during my honeymoon).
During my lower form years, I thought of becoming an architect and the idea of having a small house (single story house, with a balcony facing the rising sun, with a roof that enable me to gaze at the stars from my bed, a pond where i could fish and swim on a hot day, a stable for farm animals, a vegetable garden and lots of cats around). As time passes by and I don't take the architecture course, this particular dream doesn't really fade away. Except for the part when I'm 40 year old, I want to join the eco-race (this is a weird thing right?).
I'll write more on this another time. gotta sleep, tomorrow is the new semester.
Name: Tido Alchemist
Bdae: 14 Feb 1984
Nicks: Arfa
Skool:Soton uni
Contact Me: @zazu
[[My Adores]]
Food: Mum's Cooking
Drinks: Cendol
Pastimes: Hmm..?
People: No comment
Animal: Any furry animal cam cc plak bunyinye
[[My Detests]]
People: Ehem..ehem..
Animal: Lizard & Frogs
Food: None
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